When I was staying in America, with the host family I had explained in my previous post, I got a chance to meet Linda. We visited Matthew’s house, where Linda had been staying in his house for several weeks. My first impression of her was that she was an Indian American who seemed to be in her mid thirties, tanned, and in a very emotional state. Somehow, as soon as I saw her, I just bursted into tears. I usually don’t cry, especially when I am in front of others, but I just felt really sorry for her but I didn’t quite know why. I heard her saying that her dad was sent to the emergency room the day before and we tried to calm her down.
Sometime later, I saw her again sporadically attending church services. Then I came to realize that she was a heavy smoker, an alcoholic and also a serious drug addict. I also learned that she was not in her mid-thirties, but that she was only twenty six. It seemed like that drug she had been taking had made her to age quickly. Her cheerful youth seemed have gone away since she was just in and out of jail her whole life. The drugs she had been taking seemed to have made her to lose confidence in herself because those drugs could not fulfill her. She would feel even more depressed and scared when she was awake, thinking all that she had done and all the times she had wasted. She knew her position very well but she did not even try to change.
One day, Linda came to the church service again, but it was a little different this time. She decided to attend church regularly and to accept Jesus Christ as her Savior. She said that she was afraid to come to church because she felt so guilty when she was listening to the sermons. She was crying and confessing at the same time. But after that day, she seemed happy, much happier than before.
Then a weeks passed. We were coming out of the hospital after visiting Linda’s dad, who was said to have a major surgery pretty soon. He was afraid he was going to die. Its not that he was afraid that he was afraid to accept the death itself, but he was afraid that Linda will be left alone, and that she will continue walking on the wrong path. I did not get it at first, but Matthew later told us that Linda got a new boyfriend who is a bad influence on her. This boy friend made her to get back to the path she was in and she was smoking weeds and drinking again… I felt really sorry for her.